Emotion drives us. Emotion controls us and conversely, doesn’t do so. Emotion both clouds and clears our vision and mind while at the same time, never ceasing, never slowing down, and while it may take some – like me – a while to form definitive definitions of what is at a given time their particular emotion, it never ends.
Allow me to share, anecdotally, an example from recent times.
When someone is working off a preconception that at some point during a given day, something that is intended on improving or elating their emotion and mood is going to happen, they wait in anticipation, no? And when they later find that is intended happening is delayed, postponed or shrugged-off altogether, rather than finding emotionally-pleasant elation, they find the opposite. The planting of the seed of a light seething detest for their hope and self-promise of a later event bringing such elation, which never came to fruition.
Yes, this happened to me. I won’t disclose further details, but it got me thinking about emotion and the aforementioned notion of the – somewhat short of – crippling of emotion we experience when such a let-down takes place.
Emotion, I’ve since learned in extremely recent times is a very fluid, powerful, funnily enough emotion in itself. It can make or break motivation, establishes and conversely destabilises current moods and forever leave a black smudge on the previously pristine white ream of our memory.
Again anecdotally, a friend of mine recently passed away. As we’d all be aware through the many and vast experiences of our own, death invites emotion in its strongest most passionate form. Ranging from denial right through to acceptance and a rollercoaster of in-betweens, emotions play a game that wreaks havoc with the human psyche. This can happen so much so, that it in-turn affects individual conduct and increase idiosyncratic abnormalities in a sometimes feeble, sometimes successful attempt at self-justification of the event that caused such emotion.
Emotion is a confusing notion and simultaneously, an at-times easily understandable mental state and again, at times, an easily incomprehensible mental function that sways and bends, to’s and fro’s to the whim of... god only knows what. What our heart feels?
Clearly my prose in this post is confusing, but understanding an attempt to clarify in one’s own mind the notion of emotion is as this writing – confusing. And this, I’m sure, is only merely scratching the surface.
I would love to hear what others have to say on such a topic.
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